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a friend of mines son died a couple of days ago. i don't know what to say or do. i remember his birth. his smile. his first words. the pride his father had when he looked at him. the love he had in his eyes when he looked at his father. all i know is how awful i feel, and i have no children. i can't imagine the pain and loss - it's too much for such a great friend to have to bare. i wish that i could take it away from him, be able to carry it for a while. why can't pain be portable? there is nothing for me to do, but keep him and his family in my thoughts, and be ready if they need me for anything. it's so fucking sad.